I am 45... and I was diagnosed a little while back, and the first thing I realised about 15 minutes after starting my medication was that I had this kind of mid-level anxiety (in my body, not so much my thoughts) ALL the time, and it was just gone?
Now I still get anxious (like that chain of thought above with the cough, or other personal…
I am 45... and I was diagnosed a little while back, and the first thing I realised about 15 minutes after starting my medication was that I had this kind of mid-level anxiety (in my body, not so much my thoughts) ALL the time, and it was just gone?
Now I still get anxious (like that chain of thought above with the cough, or other personal stuff) but this kind of constant feeling in my body, it eased up? Which made me have lots of thoughts about gender and trauma and being Autistic (also recently diagnosed and sometimes I dont know what is what) and I really wanted to write something about it, but I didn't, because I have lots of things I "have"/"need" to do, and if I start writing about this it will take up too much of my time and I won't be able to do any of the other things I need to do?
And I did some study the other day (I decided I am going back to University), and I was like "Yes! Doing the thing!" And then I kept forgetting to drink and eat - and knowing I have a really hard time stopping something I'm in to is why I have given up so many things? Because regulation around them is tough - and then once I stop them, I kind of forget about them unless something explicitly reminds me.
I was a chef too, on and off, and when he was working me towards diagnosis, my psychiatrist said to me he's pretty sure that a lot of chefs are neurodiverse, because of the nature of the work, and it makes so much sense! I get those constant little dopamine hits from sending out nice looking meals, or finishing a bit of the prep list, and I might work a 13 hour day and time flies if it's busy, but then I also get extra tired because I'll see something (a dirty shelf) and if there's a lull, I have to clean it, and then I'll get pulled in to doing all this extra stuff. And kind of like the writing then I find it overwhelming to do anything, because I can't do things by like a quarter - so I can't just wash the dishes, I have to clean all the walls and counters in the kitchen at home too, and I don't want to do that - and so then it's overwhelming. I have found that medication helps that a little though (we are still working on titration of my dose) with the "procrastination"/avoidance.
Okay and now I feel weird and like this has gone on too long, but thanks for writing this.
I am 45... and I was diagnosed a little while back, and the first thing I realised about 15 minutes after starting my medication was that I had this kind of mid-level anxiety (in my body, not so much my thoughts) ALL the time, and it was just gone?
Now I still get anxious (like that chain of thought above with the cough, or other personal stuff) but this kind of constant feeling in my body, it eased up? Which made me have lots of thoughts about gender and trauma and being Autistic (also recently diagnosed and sometimes I dont know what is what) and I really wanted to write something about it, but I didn't, because I have lots of things I "have"/"need" to do, and if I start writing about this it will take up too much of my time and I won't be able to do any of the other things I need to do?
And I did some study the other day (I decided I am going back to University), and I was like "Yes! Doing the thing!" And then I kept forgetting to drink and eat - and knowing I have a really hard time stopping something I'm in to is why I have given up so many things? Because regulation around them is tough - and then once I stop them, I kind of forget about them unless something explicitly reminds me.
I was a chef too, on and off, and when he was working me towards diagnosis, my psychiatrist said to me he's pretty sure that a lot of chefs are neurodiverse, because of the nature of the work, and it makes so much sense! I get those constant little dopamine hits from sending out nice looking meals, or finishing a bit of the prep list, and I might work a 13 hour day and time flies if it's busy, but then I also get extra tired because I'll see something (a dirty shelf) and if there's a lull, I have to clean it, and then I'll get pulled in to doing all this extra stuff. And kind of like the writing then I find it overwhelming to do anything, because I can't do things by like a quarter - so I can't just wash the dishes, I have to clean all the walls and counters in the kitchen at home too, and I don't want to do that - and so then it's overwhelming. I have found that medication helps that a little though (we are still working on titration of my dose) with the "procrastination"/avoidance.
Okay and now I feel weird and like this has gone on too long, but thanks for writing this.