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Thank you for sharing this. I'm absolutely positive many, many people will benefit from your care and transparency around these issues. I myself am still surprised to notice that I'm worried and scared a week before returning for a post-cancer surveillance appointment: I feel down, or blue, not really about anything, and then it's like, OH . . . yeah, THAT. :)

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Our bodies carry the trauma - such a vividly rendered reminder of this. Love the idea of floating on top of the warm salt water. Signaling to the body, once the mind quiets, that all is well. May all continue to be well for you and your loved ones. Looking forward to enjoying your new work!

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Sometimes I think we use caring for our loved ones as an excuse to avoid our own pain. I stayed in a dead marriage much too long for the sake of my daughter - or so I told myself. In retrospect, I didn’t care about myself. I didn’t honor my own strength and vision. Trauma loves trauma until we finally shift the narrative.

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So beautifully written. It's hard to imagine a place or a place of peace that could feel safe, but you not only imagined it, you brought it into existence. So many thanks from so many people. You touch so many lives with your wisdom, strength and vulnerability.

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Thank you! What a gift to share this with us. Sometimes when I’m coping with broken or mending places it is so helpful to know that others also have difficulties. 💕

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Thank you for sharing how you are really doing. I am glad you got some relaxation in and that your mind and body felt some reprieve.

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a beautiful post. i'm happy that you were able to get some benefit from float therapy. i have been doing float therapy for about 6 month, and i had a very similar experience re: unconscious tension in the body. but with time, patience and practice, i have learned to love and crave the feeling of letting go for that brief moment. my anxiety has been greatly improved since i made floating a regular practice.

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Thank you for describing this situation so cleanly and clearly. I feel like you have just helped me to map an area of my brain that I'd never said out loud.

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Wishing you ease.

💙

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Thank you for being so honest about your ptsd and post-traumatic recovery. I hope you find the peace you need to finish your book and then take a well-deserved rest! ❤️

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Every word of this resonated so deeply for me. I’m in a season where my 18 year old requires what feels like constant vigilance and being on high alert. Not every day, mind you, but enough that I’m easily shifted into panic mode. I’m so glad you’re working with a therapist and finding benefit from it, and so glad you could step away and work through all the feelings while being away. You’re an inspiration to me. Maybe a float is in my future .... thank you for sharing.

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Perfect piece.

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Thank you. This is familiar, going on many years. Reading that you are handling it is encouraging. Reminds me to try some more, find a professional who has the skills this time.

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One moment at a time. It’s a long process getting your body and brain back into homeostasis. Hugs, love, support.

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Hugs. I’m happy for you, that you could relax and trust, even for a short time, that your family would be well.

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The pains that you endure, without allowing them to overwhelm you; the resources you find for self-care; the writing you use to inform and to support your struggles; all of these are part of a journey through pain that reaches and inspires - and even comforts - others who struggle and feel alone. Thank you for the work, and especially for the thoughtful, careful way you express your self.

I pray for Bright Blessings on you and your work. Peace, Lou

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